I wrote this letter to remind myself what my selfish nature can and will do to me if I cease to submit my whole being to Christ everyday. Though it is incredibly detailed and shocking and harsh, it might actually be truer than you are giving your own sin nature credit for. I encourage you to read this as if it were the monster inside of you that is writing to you:
Dear ______,
I am the monster inside of you;
I am here to prey upon your soul.
If you cease to fight me,
I will take you under and punish you to no end.
I want to eat you alive...slowly.
I hate you with all that I am.
I want to ruin your whole life,
Inside and out.
If you even give me the slightest pathway into your life,
This is what I will do:
I will destroy your marriage.
Your wife will learn to resent you.
She will put all her hopes and dreams in you only to get them smashed and dashed to the ground.
She will be disappointed in you.
She will give you up.
She will even leave you.
I can already picture her resting happily in the arms of another man...a man who can control himself.
She will forget about you as quickly as she can.
I want to destroy your ministry.
I will let you speak in front of many just so they can find out later that you're a total fake.
Every kid you speak to will live up to your lousy example.
No guy will grow up as a pure man. All the girls will think they have to be "more beautiful" because they aren't enough - even to you.
I will ruin their lives because of you!
But most of all, I want to keep you groveling in the sewage tanks of shame and despair. Every time you build a shred of confidence, I will dash you back to the ground lest you rise to enjoy intimacy with the Hated King.
Your spiritual demise is my greatest prize. I will suck every last drop of spiritual life out of your veins.
You will never get close to Him because one thing will always stand in the way: YOU!
I want desperately to destroy every single part of your very existence.
I hate you so much!
Sincerely,
The Monster Inside of You
P.S. I'm already dreaming of incredibly gory things for your own children. I can't wait!
